I have not had a new lover in 7 - 8 months... just the same two or three. It's been good I had a great time. Then it all came crashing down. BiggyJohn was my favourite. A true lover, with passion and grace. Something hard to find in a man who is 6'3 and build like a brickshithouse. He knew parts of me that I hadn't even found by myself. I became enraptured. Too bad I found out that he has a girlfriend.
Facebook will be the death of us all people.
Cheaters can't hide on Facebook, their girlfriends demand relationship status. Until I found out about his girl, I was thinking about talking about upgrading to outside my bedroom dates. Seeing how things went. Disappointing indeed. I don't think I can see him again, I tried after the truth came out... just made me crazy.
Frankie was my other steady. Not as good as a lover as Biggy, but he would do in a pinch. Not too much passion, and was quick to depart. Mind you, he drove in from Burlington, which is nearly an hour... just for me... so I kept on inviting him. Then the night of the parking ticket came up. I told him to park in the street, as my neighbour hogged the garage. I would pay the $30 ticket, after all... the price of gas made it fair. Only dear Frankie parks in front of a fire hydrant. 100$ later... we have a fight in the street at 4 am.
He has confirmed to me that Chivalry is dead. He doesn't want to split the ticket, he wants me to pay for his mistake. Idiot. Now after 9 months, I can't even fathom talking to him at all. He is now just a loser who won't admit his own errors. Yelling at me about how I should know my street better. Who parks in front of a fire hydrant.?? Idiot.
Which brings me to SpaderCam. He is a gentle boy of 6'3 and gorgeous red hair. He is adorable and charming. He doesn't realize his charms of course, which makes him all the better. He has been over twice, once last September, and tonight. He says he was too shy to come back before, and he even stood me up - because of cold feet.
He is playful and so excited to be naked with me. It makes it all the better to have someone who is just as excited as I am... to be playing around. There is no egos, no attitudes, and most importantly, no expectations. Just and equal opportunity event. Everyone comes out happy, and it almost feels like whatever Normal would
be.Even after, we giggle and chat and everything is calm and easy. Nothing too intense, just a normal easy conversation about life.
I doubt I will hear from him anytime soon, though. I think he feels inexperienced, after all... he is a little younger than my preferences. I think he is now 23. He also says he hasn't had any experiences with girls other than me since we last met.
I would adore to spend more time with him, he kisses like he loves me. Yet I know otherwise. Doesn't matter, cuz when the candles are lit, no one talks about how they aren't in love.
Until later. Just had to write down before I forget why SpaderCam is my only current hope to prove that Chivalry isn't dead after all.
A lot of pressure, so don't tell him... might scare him off for another six months.
