Moose Hunting

Well - the concert is actually tomorrow... But BONO will wait for me. He is good like that.

So where were were... oh yes ... the summer.

Let me begin by saying that I am attempting to rediscover my self sexually. I have been doing things that are out of character for me. And I think that I am growing as a person for it. I may have been a little more free than than normal - maybe even lowered the standards a bit in one case... but I am thinking of it as an experimentation and growth experience. This is my disclaimer... please keep it in mind.

Moose

I am choosing to write this in red as a showing of the passion we could have had. Moose was a boy ( man child if you will) who I met on the internet. Now before you decide I am a whack job for trying to find fufillment on the internet - please understand that I have an uncle who has sucessfully met and fallen in love with some one from the internet. It can happen. It didn't in this case... but it can happen. Besides where the hell are all the funny, hot, straight men in toronto anyways? They are certainly not at the gay dance clubs. So give me a break for trying.

Anyways. He was a one date wonder that I messed up by giving into passion. We met and had dinner and talked and talked and talked. We had so much in common and there was an attraction. IT was KISMIT... but then it went bad. I tried to avoid... i walked to his car with him ( since I live only a half a block away)... he wanted to walk me home. We sat OUTSIDE for another hour at least talking...

He had me meeting his mom. Had us going on dates where we went to movies, concerts, trips and other things. He went on about how he thought this would never happen to him. He had some body image issues I suggest to you... unwarranted really comparitively to the world.

I gave in and invited him up "to see my place". Well as you can imagine... no sooner than 15 minutes later... there was touching of an NC17 kind.

It wasnt magical though. There were some technical issues.... due to us both being of the larger kind. We could have worked thru that... if he coulda standed the pressure... but he couldn't and he petered out - Literally. When it was done - no one got anywhere and he was uncomfortable. The sex ruined an otherwise great summer.

This should be a lesson to you all. Sex can be both a dealmaker and a dealbreaker.

Still have to update on trip to the north ...and to BIGBOY... oh and of course Arafat ( that that one)

L8er