Am I Crazy?

It was a hot, humid June night. You could smell something in the air - but you could not put your finger on it. Was it love? Was it disbelief of others? Was it the garbage fermenting in the back of the building?

Who knows.

I am trapped in Niagara Falls Ontario. The folks reside here. It is horrible to be so displaced from the city. I have nothing but this obsolete computer to entertain me. Oh and my thoughts.

What can I tell you?

I can tell that BW ( that short form just makes me laugh for so many stupid reasons) is making me slightly crazy.
Last night he came to cards again. He was touchy, chatty and even preachy about my smoking habits. Mind you- I don't go on about his wacky tobacco habits... Maybe I should. Nothing more annoying than the reformed smoker. Though - it is obvious he doesn't like me smoking. So this may be a clue to his evil plans with me. Or he just wants everyone to stop smoking.

Regardless of all this, he was as touchy as ever, manipulated the table to sit beside me. Made the third person sit in the front of the cab ( even though it meant - he had to climb in back after BW got out at his stop. Actually, this is interesting, and it didn't occur to me until now ( booze is to blame). The two of them discussed this as we were getting in the cab. 3 in the back? Who would sit in the front if we didn't do that. Other boy ( his name will be Porno as he looks like a 70s pornstar or Freddy mercury) - might have even suggested BW get in front as he was first out of the cab... That is usually how it goes. But BW won out, which is even odder - considering this guy bends over backwards to be "nice" to everyone.

There was no touching. He did a playful shoulder to shoulder thing when he got out.

He asked again about me going to ball games on Sunday. He told me I should call him when I want to go. I told him about how DW and I talked about going... So we could sit on the grass together in our refusal to play. Baseball, as well as all sports, not my friend. BW said I didn't need DW to go. I would be fine without him.... Interesting comment coming from DWs close friend I would say.

He also asked about my Pride plans. He suggested we get together at some point. Perhaps for the parade ( then we could go to baseball).

Lots of plans this guy has. Lots of plans. I am thinking of showing up as a surprise tomorrow. The kids are most likely going to bring me back to TO with them... And that will leave plenty of time to show.
We shall see though, I haven't shaved my legs and they may be prickly. I have a skirt to wear tomorrow.. So maybe I won't go.
Or maybe dad has a spare disposable?

PS still don't know if I even care if BW is into me. Just the idea of attention is flattering.... As long as it isn't some sort of pity niceties.