Is Everything alright, Shan?

What a show of affection, love, respect and everything else good.
Asking a person if everything is alright.

Now I am not talking about just asking "how are you" to your neighbour or co-worker, and not even stopping to find out the answer. This is an example of faking it. You ask, because you are shamed to admit you care more about that cup of coffee or smoke - to stop and share 17 minutes with that person.

Where did we go wrong? When did I stop caring so much?

Someone, DW to be exact, asked me today, If Everything was alright. And it wasn't in passing. It was after phone call one ( where I invited him over to hang out). Normal request.

Then the second call " do we need booze". Of course we do, especially if we are going to try and not do drugs. Of course we do.
Then he asks the question of the day.

Now, everything is alright with me.
There was no big trauma.
There was no crisis.
Not a hard day at work.
No one got sick or called for money.
No one yelled or even was mean.

It was a nice good day.

But this doesn't negate the fact that the question almost brought me to my knees.

Now - I know who we are talking about - and you have it wrong.
It didn't make me want him, it didn't make me wet. It really just threw me for a loop. Shocked me if you will.

It's stupid, but I don't recall anyone asking me this very question ( at least not with anything but the knee jerk reaction inquiries) - in a long time. I think because I don't ever talk about things, people just got out of the habit. (this is better than thinking they don't care)

People are caught up, myself included.

But the one guy who should be caught up in himself. The guy that everyone else has an opinion on how he is the most fucked guy they know. Did this and did that. The one guy that everyone thinks is missing the emotions that matter - he asks me if everything is alright. He calls me rich. I even think sometimes he believes I am. I am pretty sure he thinks I lived a pretty charmed life these days.

He apologizes for not asking when I called him to come over. Who apologizes for being insensitive over this sort of thing? I will tell you -few and far between are people like this.

Blah Blah Blah Blech.

I am not trying to crawl up DWs ass. I am pretty much over the lust and wanting him. He isn't what I want, he would be a lot of fun though.... For a while.

I just think that I could learn a lot about caring and emotion from someone who acts like this. There is more to this whole story - but privacy laws (DWs Law if you will) prohibit me from disclosing our conversation.