Breaking UP is hard to do...

It has finally happened. I have finally been broken up with ... proper. I am nearly 37 years old and have never heard the words... " I think we had fun, and have have good life.. but it's over". Of course, I know this was how it was going to go.... since I broke up with him 3 weeks ago.

Firstly, I should start with stating that this wasn't a relationship. We were exclusively having sex for a 9 month period. He didn't feel he was ready for a relationship... he just wanted all the perks. I knew it was going to end as soon as we decided to be exclusive and a couple, but not a real couple. This was his decision. Suddenly everything he did made me annoyed, crazy, bored, angry. I started to hate all the time we spent together awake, unless we were having sex or blind drunk. It was obvious that I had ignored his flaws, thinking this was going to be something of value.

When I could not bear to go back again- he lived in Hamilton, and I - Toronto... the commute got to me... and for what? To be annoyed? The sex just wasn't the same when he said he wasn't ready for a real relationship...

So, I just didn't talk to him after my last visit. Just waited and saw what happened, truly hoping that he would just go away.
It was good for almost two weeks, then text messages, emails etc going on. I was vague aloof, until he asked why was I so mad with him.

I told him, we are different and he wasn't willing to change his life at all for me, even when i was there in his apartment, he would suddenly need to go out to take pictures, or play with computer software and pictures. I get that he is an avid photographer.. .but what was I supposed to do for hours on my own? No cable, no internet.... nothing.

I explained it and left it at that. He didn't seem to understand as he emailed me still, sent me text messages....

Then it finally came.... the " have a nice life" speech. And of course, he erased me from Facebook too. Some people are just children. We weren't dating, so this could have been more amicable.

He totally deluded himself... he was in a relationship, and his breakup post our breakup is proof.

At least I don't have to worry about him hanging around now.

YAY!!