So - here we are a month after my meeting of D. It has thrown me. I adore him. I haven't seen him again, well not in person. I have exchanged emails, texts, phone calls, and web cams with him... but not felt his skin against mine again.
I don't think it is from a lack of interest. Would he still be talking to me if this was the case? Mind you there have been many unanswered calls, days of silence... it is nerve racking indeed.
I recently got it out of him, that he is a little shamed by our behaviour on the night of our first meeting. I am left with the impression that he feels he was disrespectful almost. It makes me feel good that he is like this. Gives me hope.
You see, I have given up all pursuit of the other boys. There are lots of them, but non of them seem to be worthwhile at all!
I just have to wait and see what this one brings. Hope I am not setting myself up for disaster.
But what a delicious disaster it is so far!
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