Not so Easy Like Sunday Morning...

The Jerk has ruined me for a few days. Of course - I do appreciate his honest opinion... as I did ask for it. I just don't care for his opinion. It offers no hope. Although part of me does agree with him, but then there is that mushy romantic... waiting for him to show up with that ghetto blaster (is ghetto blaster a racist term> anyone? anyone?) a la Lloyd Dobler and show his naked side... Jared, not the Jerk... in case I confused.

Ok so the Jerk and I go for our therapeutic brunch as we typically do. We talk of things we don't normally speak of in mixed company. I feel it is probably one of the most pivotal rituals to our relationship. I can talk to him about whatever, and he is almost willing to talk about things that we not speak of. Today I selfishly talked about Jared Leto... as I am still all messy about Thursday night. And the subsequent phone call I received yesterday which causes me to believe it will be another "I don't know what you are talking about, that didn't happen" situation.

I tell the Jerk about the phone call.... Here is a quick replay:

Jared - "Ya, so what is the name of that place we go? Gabby's? I want to call and find out if they are playing the UFC fight"
Me - 'It's actually called Toby's and they are playing the fight"
J- 'Oh it's not a Gabbys.. you sure?'
Me - 'Ya, I am sure. I guess you are not coming to the Birthday Party?' (It's my best friends b-day)
J -' No, I doubt it... but say Happy Birthday.... PAUSE ....I gotta go.'
Me - 'um....ok...'
J - 'Bye.'

This is the entireity of our phone call... after the most intense night we spent together. No references... no "I really had a good time", no "hey when you want to go for your dinner" not even "we shouldn't drink so much"... nothing. Like the entire night never happened.

This leads me to believe he won't mention, or admit to any of that event occuring. Which means it is all for nothing... those were the best circumstances I could hope for... when will we be out again alone? Not like that.

Now for the Jerk's response... I ask him about the phone call ... and he just waves it all off. 'Doesn't matter ...' This is what he says.
Why Jerk?
'Cuz he is so broken, he doesn't even know what he wants... so how can he decide to do something? When he doesn't seem to even know if he wants it. Lost cause. Give up...'

And then he goes back to adding hot sauce to his eggs benny.

Then later he adds... 'your interest in him confuses me'... This is where I cut in... 'why cuz he doesn't look like that guy?' This is when I point to the hot bartender at Sneaky Dees where we are brunching. A lovely boy, mid- to late 20's ... Tall, thin - lanky really best describes him... Jerk ' Ya'.

Of course, this is when we both go on about Jared and how we both really like the guy in general. I briefy update Jerk on Jared's questions about Jerk... "How is he doing, is he ok" etc.

You see- Jared is onto a big secret that the Jerk has recently let me in on. Of course, this is not my forum to out my friend about something so personal or important... but due to circumstances... I have to let you in on it a bit.

Of the few times the three of us have hung out, Jared has become aware that something is off about my Jerk ... as he has been witness to two very distictly off situations... One was no big deal... but the other - well it made things obvious that there is something going on.
But being the man that I have come to crush on like no other in recent years, he doesn't straight up ask me ... he just always asks general questions.

So I have to update Jerk... cuz sooner or later a third incident will occur... and I will probably have to say something to stop Jared from talking about it in mixed company again. Though I do hope that this event will perhaps convince my Jerk to talk to people...

Enough of that...

So - here is my unrealistic hope based on this Phone call last night... He wants to say something, do something... just doesn't quite know how 'to get it done'. But he's gonna work on it... and we will have a fall wedding... in his team colours... and we will go to Poland for our honeymoon - maybe a stop over in Florida... depends on how much time I can get off work...

You like it? I do. That Jerk is jaded. Don't listen to him.