Wanted: Someone to love?

So what will I resort to in my struggle for some decent sex? I think that I am not alone in this thought. We all go through times when the idea of good sex - seems so far away. I can't be alone? Right?
Of course, I know that anyone can get laid if they want to bad enough. I think it is just a matter of what they are willing to put up with to fufill this requirement of life. And don't kid yourselves, it is a requirement. Otherwise what is the point? Going to Heaven ? Whatever kids.

Over the years I have resorted and put up with lots of things, in order to satisfy my needs for decent sex.

Drunken sex.
This may not seem like much of a bad thing to people. Everyone ( or a vast majority) have done it once or twice. You wake up in the wrong bed. The flashes of the path to this wrong bed. Things you said, things they said. Lies that passed between these now dirty, sweaty sheets. It can be a fond memory, just so long as you don't have to gnaw off your own arm to get out.

Fake Relationship.
This is when one of you in the relationship doesn't want to admit it is a relationship. Call it "mutually satisfying friendship", "friends who fuck", "friends with benefits". Don't kid yourself. One of you has already gotten into a relationship - they just haven't told the other yet. It will end at some point, and 9 out of 10 times - it gets awkward. But still, the braver of us does it. Perhaps brave isn't the word. Perhaps selfishness and loneliness are more fitting.

Staying-for-the-sex-but-its-over Dating.
Maybe you would have left and started over sooner. Maybe you cheated, maybe they cheated. Maybe you are afraid to leave for one of a billion reasons. Or maybe it is just nice to have sex with someone who has gotten it down to an art. I did this once. The sex got better and better when we talked less and less. The denial that was really over is what fueled us into some of the deepest, passion-filled sex of my life. There are times where I would go back into this relationship in a second - after all, I could enjoy myself greatly - as long as I turned my own brain off. Maybe he could fuck my brains out .... Literally.

One-night Stands.
Now this is a great category. You can really have a good time if you understand that this will be the only time you ever have to see this person. There are no inhibitions. No concerns of going to far, saying too much, making the wrong noise. The entire event is strickly to ensure good, dirty, nasty (if you like that) sex. I have savoured this category over the years for many reasons. Dating and getting to know people may be a good idea if you want to spend forever with someone,but if you are of a different school of thought, that the one person who is perfect for you, probably doesn't live within 35 kilometers of your house, you have time to kill. Might as well hone your skills I say.

Internet Dating.
Now this category can mean many things. It can mean meeting people online, and carrying on some sort of Cyber, phone sex life. Though some people find this fufilling, I think it is kinda lame. I tried it out, years ago. I haven't faked it so much in my whole life. Why do I want to lie to a stranger? All the while banging on a keyboard in "ecstasy"? I know that someone who reads this may be into this... That is good for you. I just wasn't into it... My tactile ways wanted more. Surely you can understand that.
This also means, Lava, friendster,myspace,whore.com and whatever else you can think of. It is where you hook up. For a date, for sex, for a relationship that you eventually stay in. I have heard many stories, and perhaps participated in a few. I don't really like the idea of dating this way. Too many opportunities for rejection. More so than regular dating. No one looks as good as they do on paper, or email, or webcams. It is just the truth.

This is where I lie. Lost in the sea of options. I just want someone to hang out with and occasionally suck on. Is this too much to ask? To have phenomenal sex with some other fun things attached? There are days where I feel this is an impossibility.